BAH! ((She’s a temptress.))

I had brunch with Michael and Lauren today. If it weren't for the time I spent with them in April, I probably wouldn't be here now. After last night's dinner and drinks with two high school friends from Turkey, too, I have been asked so many times already when I might move to NYC. I've been asking myself the same question since before I got here.

I don't know for certain. I have some ideas, and I am not quite ready to have you read about these yet. Uncharted territory needs to remain uncharted for now.

Anyhow, the intention is now out there in the world. I may decide to stay put in SF indefinitely after all this possibility-exploring, but to take the NYC option seriously for myself, to really consider it an option, I need to figure out what I would do here if not teach. Yes, I could teach. I don't think it would be that hard for me to get a job in a NYC independent high school. (Yes, I am arrogant. I know what I know about myself.)

But…

If I am going to go through a major life change, I kinda want to think outside the box. I mean, I first thought of wanting to be a teacher in 6th grade. That was about two decades ago. If I am going to uproot myself and start new, I want to think about what else I might want to do to really start fresh. In the end, I might decide to keep teaching. I do love what I do. Still, it's kinda exciting to brainstorm, no strings attached.


And terrifying.


(If you know me, you know that if I notice myself feeling fear or anxiety about something, I pursue it all the more.)




Things will become clear eventually. The present is what it is, and everything is everything.