Wish list:
• Sleep, as soon as I am done with this list.
• Focus and stamina—I want to relish the finish; I want to enjoy cleaning my desk at work.
• An appreciation of the process, the getting there.
• Making time to do/pick up laundry.
• Good food. Not just eat, but eat well.
• Reconnect with someone I have not seen for (as far as I'm concerned) too long. • Phone conversation with someone who makes me feel loved.
• A moment that makes me love this city all over again.
• Real mail—a postcard, sent to me or received by me today.
• Sevgilim, kollarimda.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
:: Tuesday ::
Here's what I want from today:
• Sleep...as soon as I am done with this list.
• To get up and get out of the house at a reasonable time.
• A good decision about where to grade/write reports so I can focus and be productive.
• Be done with B period reports, so that all I can have left to do are sophomore advisee letters.
• Time to do (or drop off and pick up) laundry.
• An email from Lucci, accepting the sublet for at least $500.
• A phone call from a friend that energizes and refocuses.
• Patience with other people's process and time lines, but with the acknowledgment that too much patience is not a virtue—that's just being a pushover.
• A random, beautiful encounter.
• To notice something beautiful, especially if it is mundanely so.
• And, as always: the courage of James Baldwin.
• Sleep...as soon as I am done with this list.
• To get up and get out of the house at a reasonable time.
• A good decision about where to grade/write reports so I can focus and be productive.
• Be done with B period reports, so that all I can have left to do are sophomore advisee letters.
• Time to do (or drop off and pick up) laundry.
• An email from Lucci, accepting the sublet for at least $500.
• A phone call from a friend that energizes and refocuses.
• Patience with other people's process and time lines, but with the acknowledgment that too much patience is not a virtue—that's just being a pushover.
• A random, beautiful encounter.
• To notice something beautiful, especially if it is mundanely so.
• And, as always: the courage of James Baldwin.
Monday, June 15, 2009
:: Monday ::
Today I wish for myself:
• this time that I have right now to make a wish list without any interruptions
• ability to concentrate on grading & writing reports, not obsessing about every word that I write—moving quickly, efficiently
• not obsessing about the unknowns—patience and compassion in a time of standstill
• strength, courage, and wisdom to "set my house in order"—and then just be, knowing I did my part
• ability to follow the voice I heard at Moshe's grave: So live.
• dinner—I need to remember to eat!
• connection with friends who make me feel loved
• openness
• ...at the same time, resistance to hyper-empathy
• once again, be able to follow in Baldwin's footsteps and find in myself today (and everyday this week—small steps!), the courage necessary for love—boundless, uninhibited, guilt-free, doubt-free love, both as a giver and a receiver. Yesyes.
• this time that I have right now to make a wish list without any interruptions
• ability to concentrate on grading & writing reports, not obsessing about every word that I write—moving quickly, efficiently
• not obsessing about the unknowns—patience and compassion in a time of standstill
• strength, courage, and wisdom to "set my house in order"—and then just be, knowing I did my part
• ability to follow the voice I heard at Moshe's grave: So live.
• dinner—I need to remember to eat!
• connection with friends who make me feel loved
• openness
• ...at the same time, resistance to hyper-empathy
• once again, be able to follow in Baldwin's footsteps and find in myself today (and everyday this week—small steps!), the courage necessary for love—boundless, uninhibited, guilt-free, doubt-free love, both as a giver and a receiver. Yesyes.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
:: wish list ::
The more I take photographs, the more my eye notices the photo-worthy details.
The more I write down haiku moments in a notebook, the more my attention becomes trained to recognize haiku moments in my daily life.
A couple of weeks ago, I changed my Facebook status to declare I was going to let love rule. And indeed, on the days that I updated my status to that declaration, so much love flowed into my life and into me.
Also on FB that same week, I began keeping a "superstars/gratitude" list everyday. Acknowledging people and encounters that made me feel grateful helped me focus on the awesomeness of everyday.
It's all the same story: perspective. Change your perspective, and you begin noticing what was there all along.
So...
This week, I am going to track what I wish for my day, no matter how trivial, or how unwieldy and vague.
Today I wish for myself:
• a peace of mind
• the ability to focus so I can get a good chunk of work done today
• whatever form of connection with friends who make me feel loved
• openness to receive love
• resistance to judging myself too critically
• resistance to over-empathy
• the courage of James Baldwin to love and be loved—more more more love: boundless, uninhibited, guilt-free, doubt-free, both as a giver and a receiver.
The more I write down haiku moments in a notebook, the more my attention becomes trained to recognize haiku moments in my daily life.
A couple of weeks ago, I changed my Facebook status to declare I was going to let love rule. And indeed, on the days that I updated my status to that declaration, so much love flowed into my life and into me.
Also on FB that same week, I began keeping a "superstars/gratitude" list everyday. Acknowledging people and encounters that made me feel grateful helped me focus on the awesomeness of everyday.
It's all the same story: perspective. Change your perspective, and you begin noticing what was there all along.
So...
This week, I am going to track what I wish for my day, no matter how trivial, or how unwieldy and vague.
Today I wish for myself:
• a peace of mind
• the ability to focus so I can get a good chunk of work done today
• whatever form of connection with friends who make me feel loved
• openness to receive love
• resistance to judging myself too critically
• resistance to over-empathy
• the courage of James Baldwin to love and be loved—more more more love: boundless, uninhibited, guilt-free, doubt-free, both as a giver and a receiver.
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